I need to go somewhere, where i can be myself.
I've done enough already, i've took my chances. Theres nothing left here for me anymore. I don't wanna live a life unhappy.
I am now wise and given my shot. Better tried my best, and proved my best wasn't good enough.
Sad but when you realize that the love that was there before isn't burning any more you tend to be blind... Hoping things will work out right.
But the more you try, the more you realize that there's no way you can fix things up.
Indeed, reality bites.

Theres nothing there. No love just care. Just pity.

Human clay

There was once this little girl who want everything in her life.
When i grow up someday, she said i'll buy and eat all of my hearts desire!

I am that little girl, and now that i grown up... Nothing matters to me anymore. No dream, no wanting... no nothing.

When you grow up, all you think about are your family. End of story.

The food youve already eaten, the things you already had, the places you've already gone to.

It was then that you'll realize that the essence of living doesn't depend on how large you acquire in life, but rather on how much love you've given and how much love you are willing to give.

I dont know anything about this things before. I am outrightly selfish, all i care is myself every step of the way.

We aged, we truly change and by then we learn thru experience all this wonderful things.

Looking up, i thank God for everything.

The good, the bad and those hardship that moulded me to a person i am today.

Family outing

Basang basa resort is located at San Joaquin Iloilo, 3 hrs from Jaro, Iloilo.
We started early like 5am then we arrived at about 8am.

Entrance fee is at 15/head and 10/head for kids ages 5 down. Fair enough.

We rented an air-con overnight cottage fronting the seashore for p/2,000. 2 queen beds, very clean and got this terrace ect. If you happen to be crowded, the staff provides extra beds or pillow for 15 peso a pc., so you can lie anywhere you wanted!

They also have this cottage at the back, its 2 bedroom, 1 non aircon and the other bedroom fan room, a terrace on front. Very good for couples its slso 2k. They have other fan cottages which can be rented for 1k only, same 2 beds.

The water is very very clean, look and behold! The have a wide parking area, very secure and quite long shoreline.

They have a facebook account anyway which is very helpful upod booking purposes.

There number: 09097182143

Hope my pictures will get you a glimpse of whats is to be expected.

Posted this blog to help you guys out!

Enjoy!!!

My life

We grow up knowing how hard life is. I remember when i was young my papa used to work in an insurance company. Then he lost the job. We were just kids then, parents decided to cook food and sell for students just outside our house. Mama and papa help each other, they were two simple people making a way to hurdle life's hardships... They didn't show how hard it is, they just work and work and i saw how they live life having no qualms in the world having simple things in life... My papa smiles a lot and throw jokes as if life is beautiful. Making ends meet despite the situation... way back then, I personally haven't felt poverty in our simple life.

Maybe its a tough life for my parents, they are fighting to live and thats what counts in life. To live well as a humans, to do well for your children and set a a good example... that maybe followed by the later generation.

I went off to a public school when i was in high school. We cant even afford to buy a new shoes, a family friend of my mom was kind enough to give an old black shoe to me then.
 I remembered my shoe having a hole at the soles, i just disregarded that and just wished it wouldn't rain.
Unfortunately one day it rained, water seeped inside my socks and it smells.
But then again, "beggars cant be choosers".
Life has it's moment.

There was this deepest recession in our life when we have to borrow rice to a neighbor, way back then, i felt so embarashed.
But i have no choice.

I know how it felt having nothing, and how it felt controlling my desires.

I didn't join our Engineering field trip way back College because i know my parent's can't afford it.
 I decided not to go on my own and don't tell mom.

I conditioned myself, and it doesn't hurt.
I worked my way after college and was thankful for any job opportunity that comes my way easy...
Sometimes, It felt like somebody,
good spirits is conspiringand helping me,
guiding me forward, maybe its my papa soul ( My father passed away way back when i was about to graduate in College.)
.My Father always helped me in everything.
I love my papa so much, In his own little way, he loves me and always being there for me no matter what.

Remembering when he passed away, it was the lowest times of my life.
Tears drops down uncontrollably, and i cried more behind the eyes of everyone, i hate showing my emotions.
I was taught by my Papa not to be a cry baby.
If only i can take his place, i will.
I am nothing compared to him,
 i haven't proven anything yet.

I can feel that God and Papa's soul is still there guiding me, helping me to be of help to my mama... my family and to be a strong foundation for Kelsey.

I remember seeing papa last year in my dreams,
i don't know why he is so busy...
Maybe he wants to tell me something.

I wanna work and do something worth it and be of help.
I don't care for myself much...
Its my family and my mom and Kelsey whom the priority of my life.

I just wanted them to live comfortable and well.
My mama is old now.
We have gone through a lot in life,
 and life itself toughens and chiseled me to be the person that i am right now.

I am here because i have to,
 i am here because i am needed,
i have to strive,
i have to build a foundation for my family for tomorrow...
That they won't be blown away by life's difficulties.

There life is there own, mine too.
Mine isn't stable yet, but it will be
and i will promise papa i will stand strong even in difficulties, failures and depression.

So help me God.


Merce

The love of my life

I just love her all my heart
An angel in my eyes.
My strength
My life
My soul.

I am happy
For life
For the blessing

Simple life
Simple food
Just to see my angel
My mom
My brothers
Its enough to smile.

Mind over Body

I have to change the course of my thoughts. I am afraid of another job interview failure...
Okay i am a positive person, but sometimes there's this circumstances wherein ee cant help bu sulk, feel down and like the world is crushing down on you.
That's the feeling of failing something. It wears you down and makes you weak... All over. And man, i just hate the feeling.

I know i didnt get a good job over yesterday, just average and my chances are average as well.
I know that i am good in what i am doing, and i believe i can do better given an opportunity and a chance.

I am desperate. At my age i'm going nowhere and it badly ruins me.

I promise to move up, kick ass and do whatever it takes to make something out.

Damn damn damn!

Job interview today

Praying that i make it! I've tried my best, shown them i know... Just flunk the ddim setup grrrr!?
But alls well that ends well. If they give me a chance ill kiss them so so much! But if they denied me, wont think of that as for now.

I will study and learn and learn and be the best, i wont stop until i prove to myself that i can do something and better my chances someday.

Theres no hurt in trying. In trying and attempting to gain we learned our incapacities and weakness.

I strive to eliminate those ignorance and challenge myself to achieve many things.

Random Thoughts...

Random Thoughts….

September 3^rd. there are this days that I felt so lazy, I don’t know why… but I can’t have the Power to get off it!

Sometimes this life bugging me off, the worthlessness and the stupid vibes, 
how I wish God may give me another chance to be more worth it 
and help my loved ones… career wise… mine sucks.

I don’t have the guts to admit it, but that’s how I feel it was. 
I'm so tired of making this stupid plans…
 I don’t know why… I don’t know… a lot of things putting me on halt!

I feel lighthearted. I finished 1 bottle of San Mig Pilsen.

I felt like I can say everything, do anything and swear myself out!
 Damn damn damn!

I love my baby boo… 
I knew why i'm here maybe God wants me to be with her.
 Kelsey’s an intelligent beautiful girl, 
very high IQ an exquisite beauty and mind combined. 

She inspires me in everything. 
I wanted all the best for her…
 she’s the driving force behind my strength… 
the living elixir of life within me.

I must I must!

Love me for what I am… damn.

I hate being chubby…
The look of having this foamy feeling in some unwanted places. 
I want to get rid of it… soonest the better.

I hate the floor of this house…ugh ugly!

I love my PC! Lol

I love myself, and damn well!