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Dreams Is what Pushes Us to be Great

For me nothing is sure in life.

Life is a never ending phase, we can good today and a total mess tomorrow.

I live for my future, and whatever i can do to make a good foundation in my career and my life today, i will never stop to dream, for with dreaming, no one is too young nor too old.

Looking back 2009...

I returned in the Philippines after the great recession from the middle East. I was working and earning good money way back in Dubai, had a 3 solid years contract, and things was going on too well, but i was sent home. 

my chances for a better life was halted, my dream for my family... 

I was back to basic.

i worked 2010, but 2011 was a dire hard year for, i was unemployed, but i keep hope within me.

mid of 2011, i was getting on my feet, i thought, i don't wanna be idle and see myself worthless someday. I have to move on however hard it may seem, and never stop trying. Nothing is impossible to a person who believes in itself, who strives and never give up.

2011 and 2012 i was reviving myself, getting more jobs and designing projects, as well as getting courses in between. 

November of 2012, I got a call from DCK, it's a phone in interview while me and Kelsey are on our way for an Sm Halloween costume.

I'ts a blessing and a stroke of luck, God's will that i was chosen.

My hardship's paids off, and i got the job.

I still am a Private Designer in addition to my present job, and another freelance Designer to my Korean counterpart, friends.

Everything, I thank God.

I've been to a lot of failed job interviews before, and it hurt emotionally and it dragged you down the gutter. it pulls you down like you wanna be lost and never come back.

Im been there, done it, felt it.

and it made me stronger, made me to fight more and want to achieve more.

Failures, kicks me off track. But i will never let it ruin me.

I have a dream, not for me, but for my Family.

I have a dream, not for me, but for my daughter... my mom and everyone whom i love, everyone that's been there for me every step of the way.

Cecil and his family, we both have a dream, a dream we will achieve, a dream we will both put our mind into. 

I won't stop till my breath stops.

Journal

I need to go somewhere, where i can be myself.
I've done enough already, i've took my chances. Theres nothing left here for me anymore. I don't wanna live a life unhappy.
I am now wise and given my shot. Better tried my best, and proved my best wasn't good enough.
Sad but when you realize that the love that was there before isn't burning any more you tend to be blind... Hoping things will work out right.
But the more you try, the more you realize that there's no way you can fix things up.
Indeed, reality bites.

Theres nothing there. No love just care. Just pity.

Human clay

There was once this little girl who want everything in her life.
When i grow up someday, she said i'll buy and eat all of my hearts desire!

I am that little girl, and now that i grown up... Nothing matters to me anymore. No dream, no wanting... no nothing.

When you grow up, all you think about are your family. End of story.

The food youve already eaten, the things you already had, the places you've already gone to.

It was then that you'll realize that the essence of living doesn't depend on how large you acquire in life, but rather on how much love you've given and how much love you are willing to give.

I dont know anything about this things before. I am outrightly selfish, all i care is myself every step of the way.

We aged, we truly change and by then we learn thru experience all this wonderful things.

Looking up, i thank God for everything.

The good, the bad and those hardship that moulded me to a person i am today.

Family outing

Basang basa resort is located at San Joaquin Iloilo, 3 hrs from Jaro, Iloilo.
We started early like 5am then we arrived at about 8am.

Entrance fee is at 15/head and 10/head for kids ages 5 down. Fair enough.

We rented an air-con overnight cottage fronting the seashore for p/2,000. 2 queen beds, very clean and got this terrace ect. If you happen to be crowded, the staff provides extra beds or pillow for 15 peso a pc., so you can lie anywhere you wanted!

They also have this cottage at the back, its 2 bedroom, 1 non aircon and the other bedroom fan room, a terrace on front. Very good for couples its slso 2k. They have other fan cottages which can be rented for 1k only, same 2 beds.

The water is very very clean, look and behold! The have a wide parking area, very secure and quite long shoreline.

They have a facebook account anyway which is very helpful upod booking purposes.

There number: 09097182143

Hope my pictures will get you a glimpse of whats is to be expected.

Posted this blog to help you guys out!

Enjoy!!!

My life

We grow up knowing how hard life is. I remember when i was young my papa used to work in an insurance company. Then he lost the job. We were just kids then, parents decided to cook food and sell for students just outside our house. Mama and papa help each other, they were two simple people making a way to hurdle life's hardships... They didn't show how hard it is, they just work and work and i saw how they live life having no qualms in the world having simple things in life... My papa smiles a lot and throw jokes as if life is beautiful. Making ends meet despite the situation... way back then, I personally haven't felt poverty in our simple life.

Maybe its a tough life for my parents, they are fighting to live and thats what counts in life. To live well as a humans, to do well for your children and set a a good example... that maybe followed by the later generation.

I went off to a public school when i was in high school. We cant even afford to buy a new shoes, a family friend of my mom was kind enough to give an old black shoe to me then.
 I remembered my shoe having a hole at the soles, i just disregarded that and just wished it wouldn't rain.
Unfortunately one day it rained, water seeped inside my socks and it smells.
But then again, "beggars cant be choosers".
Life has it's moment.

There was this deepest recession in our life when we have to borrow rice to a neighbor, way back then, i felt so embarashed.
But i have no choice.

I know how it felt having nothing, and how it felt controlling my desires.

I didn't join our Engineering field trip way back College because i know my parent's can't afford it.
 I decided not to go on my own and don't tell mom.

I conditioned myself, and it doesn't hurt.
I worked my way after college and was thankful for any job opportunity that comes my way easy...
Sometimes, It felt like somebody,
good spirits is conspiringand helping me,
guiding me forward, maybe its my papa soul ( My father passed away way back when i was about to graduate in College.)
.My Father always helped me in everything.
I love my papa so much, In his own little way, he loves me and always being there for me no matter what.

Remembering when he passed away, it was the lowest times of my life.
Tears drops down uncontrollably, and i cried more behind the eyes of everyone, i hate showing my emotions.
I was taught by my Papa not to be a cry baby.
If only i can take his place, i will.
I am nothing compared to him,
 i haven't proven anything yet.

I can feel that God and Papa's soul is still there guiding me, helping me to be of help to my mama... my family and to be a strong foundation for Kelsey.

I remember seeing papa last year in my dreams,
i don't know why he is so busy...
Maybe he wants to tell me something.

I wanna work and do something worth it and be of help.
I don't care for myself much...
Its my family and my mom and Kelsey whom the priority of my life.

I just wanted them to live comfortable and well.
My mama is old now.
We have gone through a lot in life,
 and life itself toughens and chiseled me to be the person that i am right now.

I am here because i have to,
 i am here because i am needed,
i have to strive,
i have to build a foundation for my family for tomorrow...
That they won't be blown away by life's difficulties.

There life is there own, mine too.
Mine isn't stable yet, but it will be
and i will promise papa i will stand strong even in difficulties, failures and depression.

So help me God.


Merce