The love of my life

I just love her all my heart
An angel in my eyes.
My strength
My life
My soul.

I am happy
For life
For the blessing

Simple life
Simple food
Just to see my angel
My mom
My brothers
Its enough to smile.

Mind over Body

I have to change the course of my thoughts. I am afraid of another job interview failure...
Okay i am a positive person, but sometimes there's this circumstances wherein ee cant help bu sulk, feel down and like the world is crushing down on you.
That's the feeling of failing something. It wears you down and makes you weak... All over. And man, i just hate the feeling.

I know i didnt get a good job over yesterday, just average and my chances are average as well.
I know that i am good in what i am doing, and i believe i can do better given an opportunity and a chance.

I am desperate. At my age i'm going nowhere and it badly ruins me.

I promise to move up, kick ass and do whatever it takes to make something out.

Damn damn damn!

Job interview today

Praying that i make it! I've tried my best, shown them i know... Just flunk the ddim setup grrrr!?
But alls well that ends well. If they give me a chance ill kiss them so so much! But if they denied me, wont think of that as for now.

I will study and learn and learn and be the best, i wont stop until i prove to myself that i can do something and better my chances someday.

Theres no hurt in trying. In trying and attempting to gain we learned our incapacities and weakness.

I strive to eliminate those ignorance and challenge myself to achieve many things.

Random Thoughts...

Random Thoughts….

September 3^rd. there are this days that I felt so lazy, I don’t know why… but I can’t have the Power to get off it!

Sometimes this life bugging me off, the worthlessness and the stupid vibes, 
how I wish God may give me another chance to be more worth it 
and help my loved ones… career wise… mine sucks.

I don’t have the guts to admit it, but that’s how I feel it was. 
I'm so tired of making this stupid plans…
 I don’t know why… I don’t know… a lot of things putting me on halt!

I feel lighthearted. I finished 1 bottle of San Mig Pilsen.

I felt like I can say everything, do anything and swear myself out!
 Damn damn damn!

I love my baby boo… 
I knew why i'm here maybe God wants me to be with her.
 Kelsey’s an intelligent beautiful girl, 
very high IQ an exquisite beauty and mind combined. 

She inspires me in everything. 
I wanted all the best for her…
 she’s the driving force behind my strength… 
the living elixir of life within me.

I must I must!

Love me for what I am… damn.

I hate being chubby…
The look of having this foamy feeling in some unwanted places. 
I want to get rid of it… soonest the better.

I hate the floor of this house…ugh ugly!

I love my PC! Lol

I love myself, and damn well!

DESIDERATA

DESIDERATA

 max ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.

Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.

Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Smile

What’s in my mind? My mind is focused within my family. My mom, my dearest Kelsey… Chi.

I love being home, I mean, I can’t explain how I felt… but it’s a sweet feeling of being with the house where I grow up, the smell of familiarity… the sound of the rain when it falls… the sunset… the streets the people.

It’s been long since I’ve been away from my family, but I have to. I have to build a career of my own, find my life’s purpose and make myself worthy of being alive.

I just hate the thought that someday I might wake up and realized I have done nothing at all! It’s a horror and a great dismay for me. Disaster!

 It’s just like yesterday, and it’s funny though, that time runs so fast. Looking back… it’s awesome. And sometimes I smiled and thank God for the blessings, the gift and the guidance.

MY life wasn’t perfect of course, but in my own little way, it’s enough. I’ve been taught to count each blessing… and each blessing is a gift, to cherish and nurture.

Kelsey is my little angel, she makes me smile. I thank God for the life, my mom’s cancer is like a reminder for me, to cherish each moment, for you’ll never know until when life’s end will come.

Chi, thank you for being there, I never see you coming, it’s like I wake up one day and saw you there smiling in front of me… reaching out your hand saying… you’ll always be there. Maybe God sent you too… for that I must be very grateful, I am not the best there is, but I felt Love from all the best persons in life… and that makes me feel Blessed and special. Thank you.